In high school I had an adversary. She and I were considered the "best" singers in the school, and in fact, I was considered the better vocalist.  It didn't bother me that I had a rival - until she started getting the roles I wanted. At the annual school musical auditions there would be the tense wait for the announcement of roles, only for me to learn, once again, that I was to play second fiddle in the supporting role.
As I was the better vocalist, you might be wondering why? Was her father the school Principal? No. Was she somehow connected to the musical director? No.
It was her character. She was an extrovert, a supremely confident performer, she was driven and never gave up.
I was quiet, reserved, didn't believe in my own abilities and seriously lacked confidence. This lead me to miss out on many opportunities (not necessarily as a singer but in life thus far) and it is something I'm still battling today.

I don't make New Year's resolutions, but I do have a serious ponder over what I would like to do differently at the beginning of each year.
This year I want to believe in myself. As I now move more towards art and design, I want to be confident that I can have some measure of success in my endeavours. I want to believe that my designs will start to sell, that my art is good enough to make prints, have exhibitions and that there are really people out there who would like my art in their homes. I want to know that if I persist with the guitar I can become really good and bring joy to others and glory to God through my music.
I want my children to benefit from having a positive and happy Mother.

I have a long way to go and a lot of work to do. But maybe, just maybe, this year will be the year for positive change.

Thanks for reading. God bless :)


Tas said...

With this post, you are off to a flying start, Kel :)

Linda said...

Just know that you are the best and you will be.
Love to you this 2012.

Tanya said...

loving all those strong, positive, hightlighted words. Keep remembering them

Nell said...

"No one, it is true, is YOUER than YOU" Dr Seuss.
As long as you are being the best version of you that you can be then you are doing the right thing!

quilary said...

Go Kel! You can do it!

Forest-Dweller said...

OH...I have often wished of being a fairy grant wishes of others..others can be a bratty princess or an over bearing diva but the true joy is bring the joy to others.

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